Pregnancy 2.0

Disclaimer: This is a l o n g post. Just wanted to jot down a few thoughts and musings about this pregnancy so far... 

Ah, pregnancy.

I don't think with Colbie I kept it very secret that I didn't enjoy the experience (very little of it, actually). It's hard to enjoy when you're sick all the time and don't take very good care of yourself. 

I'm happy to say that I've had a much better attitude this go around.

My miscarriage in December definitely gave me a greater appreciation for a healthy pregnancy and obvious side effects from the first trimester. I was grateful for morning sickness.  I was grateful for a belly that poked out at 6 weeks. 

The fact that I didn't get pregnant again right away after my miscarriage (like I was expecting to) helped me develop more patience. I was able to really take stock and figure out what I needed to take from that whole experience.

I was able to dive into a calling that required a lot of work and energy I wouldn't have had otherwise. Somehow, I knew that our family would be blessed with another baby after I had finished my service as Primary President (I found out I was pregnant 6 weeks before I was released).

I was, understandably, very nervous the first 13 weeks of this pregnancy, even after we saw a heartbeat at 8 weeks. Cam gave me a beautiful priesthood blessing that encouraged me to have faith, rather that fear, and trust that everything was in the Lord's hands. It was so hard to grow and work on my faith and patience (and something that I am still working on), but I'm grateful that now I get to do it while Little Man is with us and growing strong.

This pregnancy has been pretty much identical to Colbie's in terms of the glorious nausea, vomiting, and food aversions. But having gone through it before and knowing that it will end has made it so much easier to deal with everyday.

18.5 weeks

I also have a sweet little buddy who has made it her job to take care of me and Little Man when Cam goes to school and work.

When I need to take a 20 minute power nap, she makes sure I have a blanket. I almost always wake up to her giving me a kiss on the cheek.

Cam is understanding and so helpful as always. He just picks up my slack after his own long day without saying a word. He's pretty awesome.

20 weeks

We had always thought, for some reason, that we would end up with a family full of little girls. Then the first couple months after my miscarriage, I felt so strongly that a little boy was waiting to join our family. Somehow I forgot about that when I got pregnant again and began entertaining the thought of two little girls. I was so surprised for the first couple of days after we found out about this Little Man! I felt a little ill-equipped to raise a boy, but while I was praying to know how to raise a boy, I felt the sweetest impression that I would be given the tools needed.

22.5 weeks

I'll hit 24 weeks on Saturday and I know the rest of this pregnancy will fly by and he'll be here before we know it! Everyday I am so happy to feel this Little Man wiggle and kick around! He is such a blessing and we can't wait to have him here.